Something occurred to me today.
I’ve been thinking about alexithymia a lot, over the past weeks, and it occurred to me that the problem I have with naming my emotions and sensations isn’t that I can’t feel them at all (sometimes I can’t, but it’s highly variable). The real problem is that I feel so much and things shift and change with me so rapidly, it’s hard to put a single word to what I’m feeling. Even a handful of words.
What if the real problem is that the neurotypical lexicon for emotions and feelings is not sufficient to describe the autistic experience?
What if, rather than not having any words to describe what we feel, we don’t have the right words to describe what we feel?
And what would happen, if we had a wider vocabulary that actually encompassed our experiences, rather than a handful of — what — five or six different emotions.
- Whatever else
What if the emotional vocabulary is failing us, rather than us failing it?