A very common statement people make about autistics is how they “live in their own world”. For non-autistics it can very much look like the person is locked in, in a parallel world, not acknowledging what goes on around them. For each individual on the autism spectrum, this “inner world” definitely feels different and may have an effect on their interactions with the world around them. Here, I want to explain my personal experience of being in my inner world. Some may resonate with my personal experience and for others it may be completely different. But as human beings, we are all unique, whether we are autistic or not.
With that said, I want to explain about how this experience feels to me, to live in my own world. I live in a wildly different world, even though I appear to “function” very similarly to people outside, therefore not looking so different in their eyes. My reality feels like being an alien of sorts in a constant struggle to understand and adapt to this weird planet I was put in. I know this analogy is so clichéd, but it is the perfect explanation. The thing is, even when I’m doing regular everyday chores, I’m focusing really hard on keeping myself in the “outside world”. Some days are easier, some days are harder… My inner world is an all-powerful gravity force that keeps trying to pull me in, every second of every day.
Read the rest of this great piece here: How does it feel, to live in my “own world” ~ Renata Jurkevythz – Spectrum Women