Do you ever feel like you don’t quite fit in? Like everyone else knows ‘the rules’ of human relationships, except you? Of course you may wear your ‘otherness’ badge with pride and relish the sense that you’re just not like the rest, but it can also be a very lonely way to live.
I feel like everyone else is a PC and I’m a Mac – just ‘different’ rather than ‘less’ or ‘failing
Journalist and author Laura James says: “I always felt as if everybody else seemed to just ‘get it’ – whether it was friendship groups, relationships with boys or how to behave at mother and toddler groups once I became a mum. I always felt unsure of the unwritten rules. It’s had a major impact on my relationships and social interaction. When you get to your mid 40s and everything about you is weird you know something’s wrong”.
At 46, Laura was diagnosed with high functioning autism. “It’s completely controlled my life since early childhood – the way I mother my children and behave in my career and marriage. But it’s so difficult for others to see it”.
Basically Laura lives in fear. She’s always found that doing simple things that most of us would find merely slightly nerve-wracking or tiresome can be a source of abject terror. “Making small talk at a party makes me so fearful that I stay at home. I get so anxious about filling out forms that I’ve never applied for child benefit for any of my four children”.
Read the rest of this article at: Signs of autism | Mental health | Self – Red Online