I did something REALLY stupid yesterday. AS made it possible.

picture of matches that are half lit, and the rest are ready to catch flame

I’m a little shaken from something that happened yesterday. The more I think about it, the more shaken I get.

It could have turned out badly. I’m lucky it didn’t, so that’s good.

But it could have turned into something much worse, under different conditions.

Innocence + Impulsivity + Executive Function problems = Trouble

I suspect if I were a man, things would have “felt” differently, and the dynamic would have been different. In any case, I might have been safer. But I’m not a man, and getting in these types of situations have happened to me ever since I was very young.

I’m lucky to still be alive, actually.

Very lucky.

More on this later.

After I calm down and can collect my thoughts.

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7 thoughts on “I did something REALLY stupid yesterday. AS made it possible.

    1. VisualVox

      Thanks for asking. Yes, I’m okay now. A little shaky, but that’s mostly because my head has gotten locked onto all the what-ifs. And I’m seeing a larger pattern that is concerning. But it’s all lessons to learn, and I’m coming up with a possible way to prevent it in the future. Thanks again. Happy Monday…

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    1. VisualVox

      Thanks for asking – yes, I’m fine. And yes, we do get ourselves into trouble. For sure. I’m increasingly concerned about a pattern of behavior I’ve detected, when looking back over the course of my life. Feeling like my luck may eventually run out. Probably me just ruminating on negative things again, but I do believe my concerns are warranted. Thanks again for asking.

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    1. VisualVox

      It’s just awful, isn’t it. I feel so incredibly stupid. And I have limited confidence that it’s going to change, anytime soon.

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